I was very reluctant to get up of bed...feeling very weak with a broken heart, having hunger pangs till it's gone, thought of just lying on bed the whole day till the next day...i don't even have the strength to get up of bed...I felt miserable. Thought of hibernating just like those animals in the winter...Before tears could even flow down to flood the whole room, you came into my presence and my mind was all about you, remembering how you saved me and I have the feeling that I knew you since I was a child or even before I was born. I saw a vision of you and that make me to open my eyes once again, you gave me strength and I can feel it, lifting me sitting straight up on the bed. It was very real and I thought I was crazy...but NO! It was real...I can feel you. I know I shouldn't have lose faith in you and sometimes I even blamed you when things don't work out and just doesn't seem right. I regretted, really. I'm sorry for losing faith in you and everything else. I'm grateful that you are still here for me when everything seems to collapse and that I feel so paralyzed. It's true, I felt really paralyzed that's the reason why I don't have the strength to get up of my bed until I feel you lifting me up with strength and pulling me to you, embracing me once again. There's no more tears flowing down, instead I felt a little stronger. These are just part and parcel of life that I have to go through in life sometimes and that I got to learn from my experience and I have to learn to move on as well. You gave me these obstacles, hurdles etc, to test me so that I will become a stronger person. I knew you meant well...and I'm deeply grateful that you did not leave me alone to die. You are good and I realized I took you for granted...which I shouldn't be and it will never be I promised. I'm sorry for letting you down for you never fail me even if the whole world tumbles and everything crumbles. You never fail me and I know that clearly more than anyone else. Thanks for saving me from the fall just like how you saved Peter from the water. ~MATTHEW 14:22-33~
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